I don't know if I've ever written about how much I loathe the postpartum period, but I do. I really, really do. I hate the fluctuating hormones making me feel totally out of whack, recovery from the birth, the nasty night sweats, bleeding for what seems like forever (though I must say after this c-section, it hasn't been much at all), losing hair for months, initial lack of sleep, simply adjusting to the new family, and the baby blues.
I certainly get the baby blues. I know most women do, and it's a normal part of postpartum, but I still hate it. Here we are, 18 days since Ethan joined our family, and I am starting to feel the familiar sadness creeping in. I am doing the best to fight it, but it's there.
The adjustment to 3 hasn't been bad at all. It's actually been much easier than anticipated. Ethan is a really easy baby too... but I am tired. I had at least some time to myself when it was just Mason and Hannah, but now I have none. There is always a child with me, right up until bedtime. Did I mention I am tired?
So, yeah, I am feeling sad. Jason went back to work today, and the suckage of just being one of me and three of them has sunk in a bit. I could use another pair of hands. Or two. I could use some more sleep, too. Maybe a glass of wine, or three.
I am just waiting for these initial 6 weeks -- aka "the survival period" -- to pass, when things start to settle down and I start to feel more like myself.
Sunday Secrets
7 hours ago
2 comments:
Awwwh, u will be fine.
I remember those days...my first son will be 7 months old in 3 days...I almost forgot the post partum period. I cried so much because I couldn't sleep at night because I was always drenched in sweat, and breastfeeding my son...I was a complete mess. I definately did not like the newborn phase AT ALLLLLLLLL! LOL, but my son just learned how to crawl two weeks ago, and he can say a few words (hey, and momma!)
I hope you post more updates about your experiences! it seems your last post was august 2011.
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